I just went to check my other e-mail account and got a surprise. A good one. Although…seeing who that e-mail was from, I shouldn’t be. A friend wrote a reply to one of my e-mails; it was titled ‘女兒儅自強’.
Thank you for saying that I’m one of the ‘greatest person you know’, Den. As usual, you write very touching replies to my e-mails. One of the very few who, without fail, always reply to me, if you want to know. I’m not exactly sure what you mean by ‘greatest’ here actually, but it doesn’t really matter because I’ll accept that complement. And I’ll return it. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. You, my friend, are one of the kindest people I know. I may not hang out with a lot of people, but I do know quite a few, and you really are, you know. Seriously, I’m still in a state of shock that you offered to make me a cover for my desktop. I mean, it might not take a lot of effort, but how many people would bother to do that? I just went to read an article in iWeekly, and there’s a line that goes, ‘要善良很困難。因爲這個世界實在沒有太多善意’. It means, ‘It’s difficult to be kind, because there are too little kind intentions in the world on the whole’. It takes a lot of courage to be kind actually, because you have to let down your defenses and hence, the possibility of you being hurt is greater.
If you were to ask me why I am so persistent to stick to my principles and wish to make the world a better place, it is because I know people like you. You, together with my sister, and others, are the reason why I want to protect what we hold dear to our hearts. The reason why after every pebble, rock, and sometimes boulder that life throws at me hits me, I will get up again.
A little digression here. I was reading a magazine yesterday on a featured story about a woman who was depressed because of some life events, and she locked herself up in the room without eating for a week. One day, her mum went in and told her, ‘C****, you are beautiful and smart. Maybe one day you will break, But not now. And not over this man.’ Hahaha…yes, men again. But that’s not what I want to say. It could have been anything. But you know what, we will not break. I will not break. I have people depending on me, both at home and at work. And more importantly, I will not break because I have friends like you.
So, just as you have re-assured me, here I make the same promise to you. If you need somebody for any reason (and that includes slapping you to your senses!), I will be there for you. This is a promise not because I say this now, but because you put me in your heart, and because you have recipocally given a piece of your heart to me. I hope that in times of difficulties, you will think upon that and draw strength upon that.
As for finding a man…let me know if you find someone who can speak fluent English, Mandarin, Japanese, understands Singlish, Hokkien, Cantonese, and who doesn’t mind a woman speaking her mind, and sometimes having an argument just because she’s bored. And also, who will put her man AFTER her immediate family, work, and friends. Difficult, right? Not impossible, but difficult. But really, that aside, there must always be a willingness to communicate and hear what the other party has to say. That’s my only criteria, actually. I think I have a much higher chance of finding the WOMAN of my dreams, friend. Hahaha! As it is, I do have one, but she’s always busy. Oi, Mewmew, if you are reading this, don’t forget our appointment, ok?
この命が終わるまで信じる…か？あの日、ばたばたしてあなたの話が分かったのはMSNから落ちてからです。ごめんね…そして、ありがとう。我らは今決戦の地に そして自分なりのわけで、自分なりの方法で 必死に戦っている 例え傷付けて血まみれになっても 戦い続けるだろう
Sorry, no references here because they come from me.
As unapologetic about her opinions as usual…